Sometimes I wonder...

I was thinking about some stuff today. People are so weird. I mean I've known this one person my whole entire life, that person has always been the one person I thought I could fully trust with everything. That person has always been one of the people I share practically everything with. Suddenly, this person seem to have it in for me *I can't find the exact word* That person is now criticising me, putting me down.. well, basically just pounding my self esteem to the ground.

I shared something with this person recently. I told that person what I felt about something, just bits and pieces not everything. Because I was kinda like testing the water or some shit like that, after the original slam. Bam! I got shot down. It's like everything that happens to me is not possible. It's like as if everything I'm excited about is nothing but bullshit. Granted, I don't have that person's looks or whatever... Can't that person just atleast not put me down so much. Okay, so someone's interested.. he's desperate. Look, I bought this new top.. Bah that kinda thing can be made at home or bought at the side of the street. How the hell is all that supposed to make me feel? I could go on and on.. but I'd rather not.

Should I be feeling sad? Should I be pissed off? Actually, I'm both. I'm at a point that I don't give a flying crap about it. I don't even know why I bothered to do or say anything anymore. The worst part is, I don't have anyone to share all this with. I don't want to start bawling infront of people, and I certainly don't want to sound like a bitch ratting on someone I've known all my life. Maybe I'm taking it the wrong way.. but could that person atleast pretend to be happy for me?

$Ka-ChiinG$

I went on another shopping trip today. I'm slowly, but surely, getting into the swing of things. I walked around by myself for a couple of hours and got a few things. Today's purchases : 2 new tops *for school* a pair of slip-ons from Vincci, jewellery and a bag from Esprit. Not too bad, considering my sad attempt yesterday. Okay, so I've gotten my shoes and bag.. Now I need a new pair of pants and pair of heels for clubbing *Hehe*

Been spending lots of time by myself lately. I think I kinda like going around looking for stuff by myself. It's not that bad.. I get to do all the price comparing I want, noone rushing me and I can walk around aimlessly if I feel like it. Though, there are times when I could use an opinion on something. But it's all good =)

*Sigh* I'm predicting a very boring semester holiday. And an even more boring semester ahead. This sucks!

Typical...

Okay, here's the deal. I have money to get new stuff, not a whole lotta... but enough. So, off I go on a solo shopping trip. Saw 2 pairs of shoes that kinda interest me. Didn't give me the gotta-have-it feeling, though. 3 hours walking around checking out things. I tested make up, shoes, jewellery... nothing. What did i ended up buying? I had to replenish my shampoo n conditioner, so I got those, the new Cleo magazine and a new top. One top, that's it *It's really nice, though* And that was after Ninie came and kept me company. *She's working there, and took a little break* This is so typical. When I'm broke, there are like a million items begging me to get them. And now, not a single thing. Blah!

So, anyway, I'm not one to shop under pressure. I tend to regret my puchases later in the day. Right now, I'm gonna head to KL and check out stuff there. Main concern : shoes and handbags. *Hehe*

I Wanna Shop!!

Dum Dum Dum

I'm bored. Majorly bored. My mom, sister and almost everyone else left for a short holiday this morning. I thought I'll be glad to have some peace and quiet for a few days. Well, I am.. It's just that I don't have anything to do. Probably tomorrow I'll do something to cheer myself up. But first, I gotta go to Uni and hand in my proposal to my project supervisor. Ugh! I don't even feel like driving all the way. Maybe I'll find someone to go shopping with me. I've recently aquired some cash for shopping purposes *big smile* So, I'm gonna go get shoes, a new handbag and clothes. Party and non-party clothes. And probably some that can go both ways. Yay!

Right now, I'm just feeling bored and sinking deeper into it. It's even making me think about stuff that are making me nuts. Some good, some are making me go "argh!" with frustration.

Let's hope tomorrow would be more eventful

*crosses fingers*