Follow-up on an entry made a couple of posts back. I wrote something about a freaky message board, while talking about that disaster in the US. If you didn't follow the link, I'd suggest you go do that.

I got this off ChelleCam.com. It's an update on Xinoehpeol, the guy who posted some weird shit that was suppected to be linked to Tuesday's attack. Especially the post he made on the 4th of September. The posts Xinoephoel made are included in the update. Check it out.

Know what is one of the most fucked up feeling in the world? Realising that you may actually not have friends.

I dunno, it just seem that people are just nice to each other out of sympathy or maybe cuz they don't know how to say no, since rejecting someone ain't exactly the easiest thing in the world... Then, there are the ones who are nice to you because they want to have you around "just in case". Y'know, like say, if their original plans go bust, or they don't have anyone to hang with and they're bored, or if the boyfs or gals are "busy" or they're having a fight and noone else would listen to their whining... Then again I'm just making up examples here.

It just pisses me off, when people try to be nice and "be there" for them because, hey, that's what friends do... Then the same assholes would say something like "Oh, so-and-so is just too whiny and whatshit! Why does she/he have to be all stupid or whatever. Get a life!" whenever that person needs just a little friendly shoulder once in a blue moon. What really gets me is, the bastards don't realize they were the whiny losers who sounded like broken record players, repeating the same crap over and over and over again.

It's sad, really. It's sad when you feel like you don't even have someone to really talk to. It's sad when, at the times you really need to cry, to vent, and you do it alone when what you need the most is someone to tell you it's alright, that everything will be okay... I suppose, when you do one heck of an acting job looking happy that people even tell you how envious they are of your "cheery look at life", you're kinda asking for it.

Hell, I don't even know how to open up and let everything go without feeling dumb and feeling as if I'm bringing the other person down. So, I write it all here. Not even all, cuz there are still things that are to be kept private. Then again, nobody reads this junk... So not much of a difference there now, is it?

I feel sick.

America under attack. As of now, the World Trade Centre in New York is gone, and the Pentagon is 60% damaged.

I was hanging out in the room last night, when my brother came in and told us to switch to CNN. Good God! I tuned in in time to see a second plane hit the World Trade Centre. Man, that was some scary shit. To actually see the planes hit the towers, then watch as each of them crumble to the ground about 15minutes apart... I can only start to imagine the horror of those actually in the building or around it.

The Pentagon sure looked fucked. As usual, the blame was instantly directed to the Talibans and probably other Islamic groups. Heh. What else is new?

Don't get me wrong, I do feel for them and the innocent lives lost in the attack. But, then again, I also feel for the ones bombed for no reason in Iraq and the rest of the middle east. Oh well, tit for tat eh? Here's a huge directory of photos from the attack.

Okay, you can read the rest on CNN and other places on the net. I'm too lazy to really get into it. Oh, and this one is kinda freaky. Kinda stupid too, I guess.

As for now, the weather is too hot! I think I'm going through condensation already. Pretty soon, it'll be the melting phase and then I'll be nothing but a puddle of warm liquid on the chair. I think I just made myself sound like pee.

I'm out.

Amount of sleep in the last 32 hours : 1 and a 1/2 hours
Food had in the last 27 hrs : 1 slice of bread with minced chicken, 9 chilli shrimps (damn, they were small!), 2 mushrooms (it was cooked with the prawns)
Did I cook : You kidding me? It's all about reheating, baby!
When I had all that : Half past noon, I think.
Amount of water drank : Loads
Now feeling : Like a zombie
First zombie-like feeling : Driving my sister to Uni at 9.30am
What I did 'til sunrise : Aimless net surfing, typed an overdue assignment, talked on the phone, chatted on msn with Fahmy, plucked eyebrows... I don't remember the rest
Do I plan to sleep tonight : I suppose
Did I study today : Yep
Current link : Kabalarians.com's name analyzer
What that is : It's a database of over 600,000 names. It explains what your name means and all that stuff. There's a form at the bottom of the page, just type your name and click. They even have pretty weird and obscure names, which is pretty cool.

That feedback thingy doesn't work anymore, apparently. The guy providing it has it on a free server, I suppose it finally exceeded the allowed bandwidth. I'll get rid of it later, right now I'm taking off. Spending way too much time on the net. Ciao!